...I'm sorry you have had to live this life, the same life I have lived since 1998 with my alcoholic wife. I know it's painful, very painful, but there is good news.
There is something for you, not for him the alcoholic, but for you and it's called Al-Anon. It saved my life. You are already well into the first step (accepting that you are powerless over alcohol), and that's a good thing. You can find a meeting here-- if possible where you live, try six meetings, some different, before you decide if it will work for you:
WV AL-ANON and ALATEEN.
Take care,
Cyranoak