Welcome to SR ...hi... i'm an x (yey) heroin addict..of 15 yr on and off too.. Whose also 38 and childless and single... I too have had all the thoughts you have and i also agree with all the above.. I'm just wanting to add that its not too late ..we have a new opportunity each minute ..literally ... I only have 76 days but so much has happened.... I believe that actually my life is richer..lol...for the very fact that it led me here 2 and a half yr ago and now i can say i have support..which i didn't in the real world.. Mg and as for dealing with stuff i only wish i'd had here when those events took place... but do you know whats best.... I do now and...so do you cos.. You're here 2! Keep us posted xxx karma