hi onewithwings .... i'm a month behind you... And also have just suffered my first bout of craving my doc...heroin shortly followed by pretty much anything else... I just know i won't and can't give up any of the cleantime i have as to do anything like score would be tantamount to ..well..i'd rather not contemplate it lol... Today i also went through phoning everyone just at the time they were out..or at work or wiv kids and couldn't talk.. So i come back here just as you have and i think that answers your question in part... The best we can do is to talk and do what we know to be the safe option... Bless ya cos i'm right there with all you said.. Well done on 3 and a half months.. Thats no mean feat xxx karma