(((Northland))) - you don't have to apologize for talking things out, here. It's what most of us do
I've come here with every struggle I've had, since recovery, and there's always been someone who's said something I needed to hear.
I, too, wanted things to get better fast. Though I'm more content with my life, than I've ever been, life is life, and I still struggle. What's different, is I have faith, thanks to the people here and my HP, that things WILL work out.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy