Hi again!
Well, I've a suggestion (and only a suggestion) ONE thing to do
starting right now -
keep all your money you have left...for yourself.
In your first post you talked about giving up a thousand dollars
just to keep things afloat or whatever.
Make a promise to yourself you won't do that again.
It's a start anyhow.
Have you tried to find a meeting in your area yet?
Connecting yourself to recovery
is going to open doors for you
that you never knew were there, hon.
It's when things calm down
that we get lulled into thinking
it's finaly going to get better.
It isnt.
It's a cycle.
((hugs)) on a monday to you!