Hi, Corri,
Just one quick suggestion. Be careful with the overanalyzing things. It's a tip--a lot of us tend to do it, and it distracts us from what we need to be focusing on.
As you recover, things will fall into place as they should--trust me. You can't figure out and worry about what everyone else is thinking and doing and planning and what they might do, and what you should do if they do what they might do.
Right?
One step at a time. First things first. To coin a phrase or two.