If it was easy Manz, there'd be no need for SR.
Many of us took a time or two to get this right.
Try and think about what else to need to do now - you know the kind of thing - do you need more support? is face to face support an option? do you need to work out how to reduce stress without drinking? what are your triggers? can you work out a plan?
I hope you'll be back on track soon too
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