Today was Day 5 of my sober recovery. So much for that! I could feel it welling up in me all week, and no matter how hard I tried....I've let myself down. I'm embarassed to admit it, but I guess here is the only place that feels safe to do so.
Back to work the last 3 days, family issues, my son heading back to dads and No counselling support, and I've given in. I feel so alone in this and I only hope someone can understand how ******* hard it is to not drink. I'm sure I'll feel bad tomorrow, and embarassed to have posted this.
But as a single mum, alone in a country that I left behind so long ago(who knows what possessed me to come back), with almost zero support.....
Now I'm just feeling sorry for myself. Sorry. Hopefully I'll be back ontrack soon. Thanks to everybody who has offered their words of support.
