Hopeless, I have never been a big church person and have always had my problems with believing. My wife is the solid rock in that area. But I wanted to let you know that I started reading a book called In Step With God by Dr. Charles Stanley and it is proving to be very helpful. He also has a wonderful web site and Daily Devotionals. This is the second part of keeping myself sober, finding and accepting Christ. (not that I'm going to be a holy roller or anything