Welcome back. I can relate. Once we put any alcohol back into our system, the switch is on!
I believe I can never use alcohol safely again. I think we have to fully concede that we are done. That we cannot safely drink without the phenomenon of craving starting up again.
There is only one drink we have to stay away from...the first one!
No beers in the middle of the day, even if we think we can control it.
We need a sober and sane mind.
Best wishes to you.