Three inpatient treatment centers. I had 8 wonderful years of recovery in N.A. Then the indescribable I've been watching this web site for about a month. I have been in and out of recovery since 1993. happened in 2003 and have not been the same since. I relapsed first on nicotine, then pain meds (which I thought I disserved, typical addict!) was on the year or so working my way up to chewing on dentinal patches. then they cut me off because I went to another doctor for help and she said she would but when I started requesting many large doses I was dumped by both (imagine that!) so where did I turn too? My good old buddy alcohol! Drank 10 months and almost died of an overdose!
The reason I’m posting in anxiety disorders is because I have GAD and ADD.
after going through 60 days of inpatient treatment, they made me sign a contract that I would never stop my meds (Prozac and trazadone) so what do I do? I was feeling great after a year of clean time that I stopped the Prozac. I then relapsed again on pain meds, still believing that I deserved them! (DDD and fibro). About Feb last year I started getting severe anxiety. Finally in November I wanted to die, couldn't get enough Narcotic to relieve the anxiety, I knew I was in trouble, went to a psychologist. Told him I was going to die if I didn't get off Narcotics, after some diction he started me on Prozac and ADDERAL. Want to treat the add because untreated is not good for me oh and xanax. So here I am with over a month off heavy narc's cold turkey but the tramodal I had to taper over a month. With finally a clean date of 12/22/10.
After nothing working for the anxiety and couldn't stand the ups and downs of Adderal he switched me to vyvance. Then strattera. then buspar. So I have been scared of the stimulant and the xanax but the strarra and buspar make me so tired I have been doing all of it. Prozac and 20 mg adderal in the am. then a vyvance at noon. then buspar and strattera and xanax 1mg 7pm. then clonidine and trazadone at bed time. (Forgot to mention clonidine that was prescribed for opiate withdrawals).
I am feeling much better the last couple of days, finally relief from anxiety.
so all these meds, the cocktail that Im taking, worries me too.
I’m sorry this is so long but I need help I don't want to use and haven’t abused the stimulant or xanax, (YET,I know myself by know) any suggestions of what the heck is going on with me as far as the severe anxiety and agoraphobia (which I've never had before). I’m 16 days off tramodal.
