I did this stuff for awhile. BUT- it is like that paddle with the rubberband and ball on it. Why keep whopping yourself over and over? One day I accepted it wasn't good for me to do that to myself anymore. I asked HP to help me not worry about what he was doing just for today. He didn't deserve to have space in my head "rentfree" anymore. He wasn't focused on me- he was focused on using. I started to focus on things which helped get me healthy. Meetings, healthy friends, church, more meetings, journaling, Code No More Book , SR, yoga, walking, healthy meals, picking up the 100 lb. phone ,more meetings, positive affirmations, meditation tapes I downloaded free......therapy. The Eckart Tolle books helped me. Me, me me.......meetings. Meeting makers make it! Work the program you wish they would work.