I do feel you on the lying part. The worst part for me was and is the constant lying. I feel it is so disrespectful and just not conducive with trying to hold on to a relationship. I feel my relationship with my RAH slowly dying because of it.
I do know that if the only reason I was staying was because I thought I had to financially it still would not stop me. I am a stay at home mom and have no income and I have already been looking into apartments and employment that I could do to make ends meet. I want to make sure I make the right decision for me and my children so I am taking my time. I am also preparing myself though that if I have to some things will be in place.
I am hoping you can find those things because it has brought me peace to not feel trapped.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers