Get a support network. There are people who have been where you are, and know the way out. No need to go this alone. And I don't mean some people you can bullsh_t on the internet. F2F people.
If odd makers in Vegas were to review your situation, where do you think smart money would be?
On you trying it on your own,
Or you with a world wide support network, with no limitations, decades of experience, and unlimited resources?
You in this to win, or are you just experimenting?