My sponsor had me make two lists. The first list was all the crazy/bad/regretful things I did while drinking. The 2nd list was all the crazy/bad/regretful things I did while sober.
I remarked "that sober list is going to be short, all the crazy/bad/regretful things I've done was while drinking/drugging".
His response "...but you were sober each and everytime you picked up that first drink".
Wow. That blew my mind and opened my eyes. I am powerless over alcohol and my life is unmanageable. That simple statement put me into a state of mind that has skyrocketed my recovery. It took all the pressure off, suddently my life made sense.
I'm starting to become a grateful recovering alcoholic. I'm oh so happy I don't have to try to be special or unique anymore. I'm one of many. A worker among workers.
Kjell