Neo, thanks for this - I relate to all this so much. Balancing and figuring out what to let go of and what to work past. Sometimes little things can feel very intense but I have to stop telling myself I'm ridiculous for feeling that way, and just let myself feel it and get past it.
I also sometimes look in the mirror and wonder why I struggle with myself so much. It should be easier but it isn't - I wonder why I make it so hard on myself.