Welcome, glad you found us. There is so much wisdom and support and great advice in this forum.
Keep reading and posting, and remember to be kind to yourself. Nothing we do or don't do will have any impact on what the alcoholic in our lives does if they are determined to drink.
I left my ABF, almost 1 year ago. I left to save myself, and it was the best thing I could have done. I am better, he is better, the future, I don't know what that holds. And that is OK.