I've been challenged at this fork in the road too but my AH is not drinking at this time.
Questions I've asked myself:
Do I still love him? Am I truly happy?
Can I live this way now and in the future? What do I want for my future?
What is best for me?
If I'm not happy ... I cannot give anyone else happiness ...
We are still together but started counseling this week. But I have someone that is willing to accept alcholism, work his steps and work on our relationship. Without that - I couldn't go on ...
Nothing in life is perfect - I'm very aware of that. Just becuase we've got used to a consistant/certain amount of sadness, insecurity, isolation, grief, disapointments, etc. DOES NOT mean it's normal! The more I grow and learn about myself and the disease ... the more I feel awakened to my potential happiness, relationships and future.
Wishing you comfort, resolve and peace!