Great thread, great introspection, great "claw marks" quote (I'll be adding that to my "SR Quotable Quotes list), great diving board analogy.
Great new word: Obfuscation is the concealment of intended meaning in communication, making communication confusing, intentionally ambiguous, and more difficult to interpret. Wow.
How did I ever get through 13 years of alcoholic nonsense with knowing this word?
I would only add, try to forget about all the other kids lined up behind you on the diving board. Way too much pressure IMHO.
You'll pull the trigger in your own time, and like me, you will absolutely, positively know, beyond the shadow of a doubt when it's that time.
Thanks and God bless us all,
Coyote
P.S. What L2L said: You are amazing! You say you are fearful yet look at what you did this past summer! See and acknowledge your courage and independence!