BEFORE you pick up the first drink today...come here ad post how you feel. better to get your feelings out here then take the drink....it is NOT going to be easy to "just stop". but you can...take it hour by hour.
again, we are re-hashing...only you can break the cycle if you want to. i agree that you really should consider medical intervention if you can't do it on your own....
You can make a plan for childcare and go to the ER, be HONEST about the amount of alochol you consume daily, whatever you drink ...10 glasses of wine or 10 ounces of vodka and tell them you drink to the point of passing out....but again the decision is up to you.