You could easily be me. I found that I was still going for drinks and not getting drunk but also feeling the guilt during the drinking and the low feeling setting in in the evening rather than the next day. I thought in my head that was me slowing down gradually before completely quitting but then on xmas day i drank way to much. Like Isaiah I find the idea of quitting forever scary but for now im trying to eliminate it completely because I need a clean sober head to make the right choices. Im happier, healthier and more productive without it, its just remebering that sometimes.