Buffalo,
I can't flame you. I like you. I wanna give you a big hug and shoulder to cry on. Maybe you could find something to punch, like a pillow or something.
I know how infuriating it is to want to believe the lie, doubt the lie, but give him the benefit, and then feel like a fool for believing. Again.
I am glad you are getting closer.
I like you and want you to be serene and content. Not concerned about an addict doing what an addict does.
I wont flame you, but I will light a candle, and pray.
(not sure how much good it will do, i am a lapsed catholic but confirmed
)
Thinking good thoughts and sending strength and peace to you now.
Beth