Wow you guys, thank you so much for your replies. I'm really taking to heart all you've said. Something that especially stands out is fear: false evidence appearing real. I have to remember that! I think I'd be much less nervous if this stomach ache (on the right!) would go away...but I'm hoping it's just from the nerves. Good labs, good sono...so hopefully a good liver. Seems like I should be fine, right? I'm just at the point of being horrified at what I could potentially have done to myself and my family...what an insane disease. I think someone asked what I'm doing to stay sober - AA and something at my church called Freedom Ministries. These forums are a huge help though - I have three small children so getting out the door for a meeting is logistically challenging to say the least. I'll do whatever it takes to stay sober, though. Thanks again guys --- back to the Christmas clean up for a bit. Toys everywhere
