yorkiegirl,
I understand your train of thought......I've been there with my extended in-laws. It's to bad that you felt obligated to attend your in-laws' Christmas gathering.
You wrote
"I knew it wasn't them. It was ME!" I don't feel you were wrong about having your feelings at your in-laws' Christmas gathering. It's just that you, your husband, and daughter have lived through it......and seem to have survived it! You just don't receive any benefits being among drunks......in fact, it provides negative emotions for you.
Just my personal opinion. Take what you like and leave the rest.
Love and Peace,
Phoenix
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