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Old 12-25-2010, 03:28 PM
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Onewithwings
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I had to stop defining myself as a 'chronic relapser-- it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. Instead, I asked myself what might have caused the relapse, and what I can do this time around so this won't be an issue-- it's like diving to the bottom of a pool with holes in the bottom and trying to plug them all up before you come up for air. You start running out of breath, and come to the surface to breathe before all your holes are plugged, and soon, your pool drains dry. What I had to do, was put on a wet suit and stay down there as long as it takes. Sometimes I notice that once I think I have all the holes plugged, the ones I plugged at first will come loose, and I will have to go back and re-plug them. It's a constant process, but in my experience, the only thing that keeps this former 'chronic relapser' clean and sober.

Just wanted to share my own experience, as someone who relapsed over a dozen times before putting two months together. There is hope!
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