Thank you all so very much. I started reading the Big Book last night, and ver much relate to the allergy concept. I have always blacked out, and I don't ever want that to happen again. It will if I have another glass of wine (eventually). Probably not the first night or the first weeks, even. But it will happen, and I don't want the wine enough. (today...and I hope that SR and AA and my sweet kids can get me past the day when I do want wine enough.)
New me, would you check in with me...your thoughts are inspiring.