Sad day today
I am really glad I found this site. I am a mom of 2 young kids, and while I usually only have 2 or 3 glasses of wine a night, I get way too drunk at social gatherings. Last night, I blacked out, and don't remember putting my kids to bed. My son saw me smoking a cigarette, which showed him I'm a hypocrite...who knows what I did or said at the end of the night. I am so disappointed in myself...my father is an alcoholic, and I will not allow this to ever happen again. I have to quit drinking...I have tried before, but then tell myself I'm really fine. How can I forgive myself? What do I say to my kids? My husband and I love to drink wine at night and relax...I'm so afraid I will start again. I wish I could stop. I'm scared.