Hi Babyface - you had some good sober time, which shows how serious you are about this. Relapse can happen to any of us so don't feel that all is lost. It's a bump in the road which you can use for motivation.
Sometimes we need to be reminded just how powerful this disease is. After relapsing the third time, I started getting scared and it turned out to be a blessing because I couldn't explain it away with circumstances anymore. I was going to drink unless I tended to my recovery. It's not a chore - infact I enjoy spending time here everyday (don't have to get dressed or go out in the weather, and even if I'm not feeling well, I can still come here and remind myself why this is a life/death disease).
One day at a time, ya know? Give yourself a hug and start back on the positive road.