Thank you both. The guilt is the worst right now. I feel guilty because the last time we talked I was feeling more positive about things and was helping him plan to come back. I feel guilty because he doesn't know that I have decided to try to move on and I don't want him to come back. I feel guilty because I feel like I have to help him.
I am trying to remember that in "the real world" (aka non-alcoholic world) if anyone did what he did the relationship would have been over a long time ago. That treatment centers exist where he lives and he can get help there if he tries.
It's just hard...the guilt is the worst.