I don't even know what I want to know sometimes, I mean I want to know if he still loves me and if there is a chance that we might work on things and I know I don't ask because I fear rejection, so maybe in my heart I know the answer already.
I am very sorry jackthedog. I remember feeling this way too, I knew, but was not ready to deal with it. Just let him do him. You take care of yourself.
Do you have anyone to talk to?
A counselor or therapist? It helped me so much to get out of my own head.
I was swimming in pain and regret and sorrow. The therapist helped me get out of my own way.
You can do this, I think you have already done the hard part.
Beth