I am afraid if my husband gets better that he is not going to need me anymore
I know exactly what you are saying.
Allowing myself to acknowledge this was a big step for me, because once I admitted it and faced it, I started to explore it a bit.
How healthy could my relationship be if I had no sense of security? Where I didn't trust him to love me and stand beside me just because I knew he wanted to be nowhere else?
Heck, I didn't know that at all. I pretty much knew he OFTEN wanted to be somewhere else, and I made him come home, or stay home, or do things with me when he'd rather be at the bar.
I realized I really knew, deep down insude, he was only with me because he needed what I provided.
I realized I wanted someone who would love me and want to be with me, without my having to manipulate and control him in order to make that so.