I know what you mean. At first, I felt like I was hiding from my friends. Then I felt like I was punishing myself because I work so hard and I deserve to have a good time.
But, I love waking up on the weekend with no hangover and the whole day ahead of me. I went out last weekend to a sports bar for a friends birthday and just had a diet coke and went home with no regrets and that felt good.
I even talked to some chicks and I know I came off better than a mush mouth drunk guy. haha
In fact, when I was there I notice a couple of guys who were smashed and it looked gross to me. I felt embarrassed because I realize thats what I used to look like.
It totally turned me off from drinking. Maybe when your far along enough in your recovery, try going out and realize what idiots people look like when they are black out drunk. Then when you go home you will experience how good it feels to go out like a normal person and come home sober with no regrets and nobody you have to apologize to.
To me it feels much better.