I agree with everyone's posts. Him not allowing you and the children to leave, taking the phone...this is all unacceptable behavior for a man who says he loves you. And you don't think he would hurt you? I think you are in denial. What will it take for you to leave? Will it take him physically hurting you or the children? Accidents happen you know, especially when your not in your right frame of mind and on drugs. Where is your oldest childs father? Could he possibly take your 7 year old for a while until you get things straightened out? If you are miserable and sad inagine what he is putting your children through....what you are putting them through. You are also compromising your sobriety by staying as well. Be strong for you and your kids, they need you, and if you are not there for them who will be?