Please take care of you and your children. You and your children have to come first no matter what else is going on. I grew up in a household with addiction and it is not fun. My mother thought she could love him, then join him, then get angry at him, then find god. I have almost made the same mistakes and finally come to my senses. You are recovering yourself protect that as if it was your life because it is and your children.
I will have you and your children in my thoughts and prayers