Rita, I'm sorry for your pain, I truly am.
When I was back out there, doing more research in the drug and alcohol departments after having stayed clean/sober for 4 years, I didn't drink or use every day.
I couldn't tell you how many times I did during that awful 2-month period, but I can tell you it wasn't multiple relapses. It was one huge relapse that had actually started in my mind a good 90 days before I did use.
I was active in addiction/alcoholism, even on the days I didn't drink or use.
My mind was back on that crazy bus to hell.
It hasn't been that long since your daughter used that day, yes?
She's not gotten a firm hold in recovery yet.
It's hard when you throw recovery out the window.
The second time around was so much harder for me.
It took every miserable second that I was not in recovery to get my hind end back into recovery.
Hugs from one mama to another!
