I used to think it was a lot of family factors that contributed to my addictions, when actually it was my inability to deal with them and let them go.
My mother kicked me out to move a man from prison in the house when I was 15. My father called her and told her to make a choice - me or the man from prison because he didn't think a this man should be living in the same house with me. She chose the prisoner. (He was about to be released at the time my father called her.) After over a week, she found out that she would not be receiving her child support check. She called my father and told him to have me come back home so that she could get her check. She then had the guy move out and told me she just hated this because she was afraid he was going to get into trouble since he couldn't stay with her.
THAT is the woman that I lived with in h*ll for 18 years.
When someone has that low of a worth of you...it's just hard not to let that affect that it isn't about you...it's them.