I know I hit bottom when it all seemed to much for me..........I was purposely avoiding family and friends, my job was a torture chamber, I would dread the next day the night before......afraid of everything, I felt myself not leaving the house except for a booze run...........that's when I knew it was time for a change.
I think something like that is an individual thing.....but if alcohol is bringing out all those realizations to you, maybe they are trying to tell you something. Keep searching your soul......hope that helps a little??