lilac. I'm on day three as well. I've had so many "day 1's" I'm on my 3ed username here!!!!! The bottom line is we can't stop unless we try and stop. Over the past year I've tried to just "accept" the fact that I like to drink and just forget about getting sober. The problem is I am miserable when drinking and why wouldn't I be. Consuming large amounts of poison frequently will do that to a person. Just take it one day at a time that's what I'm trying to do. Best of luck...