Hi pink... Welcome to SR
I'm a recovering alcoholic/addict. My substances were Meth, Crack, pain pills, benzos, and of course, alcohol.
You ask
I have lost so much and am still in heavy amounts of pain and shame and im not sure wot i have to gain from a sober life,
You have to gain life without degredation or shame, life without a monkey gibbering on your back, the DESIRE to live itself.
I'm glad you've found us cuz, as you've learned, we're a supportive lot. If you want to stay clean, hang around with us. And....... keep going to those NA meetings. Good for you! Especially good for you for bringing another addict!
I hope to hear more from you!