Welcome to SR IndigoMama,
Glad you found us!
Reading your post took me back to when my husband was in rehab and I remember feeling many of the same thoughts and worries you are having, as well as him not calling me. I can't really answer why we have these thoughts or feelings, but I can say that I think it is pretty commom to happen to us. I think though, we have been the ones dealing with all of the choas, being codies and then we feel bumped out when they go into recovery and now we are just cut out. Lots of knew feelings in us and it can be scarey.
You gave yourself one of the biggest gifts...you are reaching out for help, getting things out, so glad you joined us!
Rose