Hello dyeman,
It is always a emotional drain on us loving our alcoholics. Just continue to READ and take care of yourself so that you can be strong for your kids. It is extremely hard.....we all know. I am so glad that you found this board. This place gives me strength to heal and keep going when I am feeling low and frustrated.Venting helps so much.So vent to your hearts desire! We are all here together to get better!
Hugs and prayers,
matters