(((dyeman)))
You need a hug! It sucks to be growing and someone is trying to pull you back to their level. I have a dear friend from Al-Anon that can't get to meetings because of her babies. I call her a lot and we have a meeting. If you have any contacts in Al-Anon, now is the time to use them. When I first started, I would be stressing out, and call my sponsor. I would get calm and feel better, then an hour later, I would be stressing again. It does get better. We do get stronger. We do start loving ourself enough to stop letting people suffocate us.
You come here and vent any time. Some times are just harder than others. Hugs, Magic