Sorry, forgot to say what I am willing to do to change.
Really anything I need to. I am not sure where to start. What I have tried before just peters out and my resolve fails when I feel I can handle it again or when I convince myself that I need a drink. I am here thinking that with support and accountability I might be able to get over the first bit and take it day by day from there. I don't know?? I hope I can do it.