It is ok to be angry. I'd be angry too if I experienced what you are going through. But as you know, that won't change his behavior because as an addict he is numb to anyone else's pain. On top of that the emotional and verbal abuse is something that in and of itself is too much. Getting support (al-anon, therapy, SR) is a great start because you can hear from people who have been there and how they handle it. A therapist may be able to help you work through his abusive issues. That would be a great first step. Sounds like you are needing a better support system to help you cope. I'm sorry you are going through this. Reaching out to people is probably the most important part initially and you did that! Maybe it is the start of finding the peace you deserve
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