Hi Jen,
So sorry you are hurting. Know that so many of us have been in very dark places as well and have come through the other side. Just remember that people who have been in abusive relationships experience trauma. Trauma from abuse can really be hard to define because it can be triggered in some very remote ways and can trigger episodes that you are experiencing right now. Your openness and frankness is a sign of someone who really will be able to work through it with time, the RIGHT therapist (and meds) if needed. But just remember that so many of us (myself included) have felt what you are feeling right now. I'm glad you posted here actually. When I was in those hard places, reaching out and connecting really can make a difference and help relieve your anxiety.
Keep talking
