Well, I didn't make it....but I am back and today is day one for me once again. One step I did make is I got honest w/ another woman in recovery. That was a HUGE step for me. The isolation was just killing me. I kind of feel lighter already. I have a plan to go to a meeting tomorrow at 3. Here goes! I just cannot do this anymore...... the lies, the guilt, the sneaking around from my husband who probably knows something is up anyway......my goodness last night I was sorting out boxes of electrical, phone, various plugs, and ear buds hundreds of them that were a tangled mess until 1:30 in the morning!!!! THAT is NOT normal behaviour! Will ck back tomorrow. Thanks for the support you have all shown.
MF