Nytepassion! I have missed you. Oh my, but you have a beautiful family.
I too am a survivor. I too raised 3 beautiful children without the 24/7 influence of active addiction in their lives or my life. I too was TERRIFIED of how I would do that. But, like you, I found that God rescued me from my own bad decisions and led me out of the abyss into the light. We are indeed blessed, and miracles do happen!
Sojourner