Congrats on 8-9 weeks! That's awesome:-)
I'm going to agree with Dee...you need to grow as a human being to stay sober...have a life you araskopf so grateful for you can't possibly mess it up by going back. I have an exercise where I just mfocus on gratitude, just let it fill me up to bursting, whenever I have a negative emotion...it works really well for me.
The thing I am coming to feel is that going through alcoholism is a tremendous opportunity to grow as a human being and that is a gift if you take that opportunity.
So...what's your plan?