It's the mental stuff that lasts the longest ItsMe.
It's pretty common and brings a lot of us undone so you're right to bring it here to talk it out.
If you're at the stage of pouring booze into a cup, don't hesitate to reach out and get some help...
What else have you been doing for yourself than just not drinking, It's Me?
I really believe we need to grow to stay sober - it's good to keep busy, but we have to be fulfilled too - we need to have a life to be grateful for, and that gives something back, ya know?
if you have face to face support, use it - if you haven't, maybe it's time to think about that option?
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