I don't feel bad about it, or guilty, or shameful...I just wish I didn't have it, much like I wish I could get rid of the depression and the anxiety. I used booze to deal with the other two...and found that along the path of self-medication I became addicted.
It's not booze holding me back, it's the depression and anxiety. I do the best I can to deal with both under the guidance of my therapist and doctor. Without treatment I do believe I would still be drinking...I couldn't get sober until I got help for my mental issues.